I am writing this, on the chance that one day, my babies will look back and read all these old posts.
I love you! I have always loved you, and will always love you. Everything I have every done for you, was done in love. I will always be here for you, good or bad. I always wish you well. I hope you succeed and go far in life. As your mom, I often feel guilty about the desicions I make or don't make on how to raise you. I often feel that I am doing it wrong, or that you are missing out. I, will then, try to compensate this, by going off the deep end in the other direction. It may feel like a rollercoaster, while living with me. You may see me cry, and then laugh all in the same breath. This is because I only want the best for you, and watching you grow and achieve that, brings me unspeakable joy that is tainted with a teeny bit of sadness. You may find me tearing up over baby pictures, sit with me and listen. I promise to tell you about how much of an angel child you were to raise. No matter how much stress you brought me, all is forgiven, and you are a blessing. I forgive easily, and frequently have my heart broken. I love unconditionally, and protect animalisticly. (Geez, I hope that's a word)
You see, I didn't go on to study and get a degree. I knew from a young age, that my life was to be devoted to you. I wanted and couldn't wait to have you. I was blessed at an early age, and it hasn't always been easy. Life has been up and down for me too, but when I see you smile, I know, everything is right.
I promise to parent you, as best as I know how. I promise to always reflect on how to improve my parenting. I can't promise I won't make mistakes, I am human. I promise not to make them twice though. I promise to always be here, and ready to help you. Life won't be always be easy, but you don't have to be alone. I will always be your mom, and I hope that I can be a friend as you journey and navigate your way through life. I love you beyond words, God truely blessed me with you miracles. Thank you Lord for them!
Love,
Momma!
